You’ve always taken advantage of free classes and talks. They are often hurdles to your greatness, no matter how good they are.
It takes a certain level of challenge for your brain faculties to open up certain possibilities. Everyone is drawn to the possibilities they have previously seen.
You’ve taken far too many free courses and have failed to reap the benefits of your learning. Change your route and take the more expensive options; it could make a big impact.
Cheap information will almost certainly yield cheap results. If something is pricey, you have the right to expect the best and only the best.